Thursday, May 24, 2007

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I have not lived in a stress free zone for as long as I have been living. I guess, I have many people in my life that only live to cause drama. And there is never a dull moment in my life. There is always something that either makes me a better person or just makes me a bitch. I can play the bitch card very well, I might say. I decided that posting blogs about the stress in my life, can be interesting for others to read. I know there are many people out there that can relate to what I am saying. They don't have to necessarily agree with everything, but as long as the blogger understand where I am coming from. I can go on forever about things that have stressed me out in the past starting with 4th grade, but I'm not going to go that far. This topic is like a continuous journey in my life. May it be positive stress or negative. I mostly write about negative, because there is really nothing positive going on in my life right now. Well, I did go to church last Sunday asking God to forgive me of my sins, and to help me stay strong through my struggle. Being a grown up is really hard work. There are responsibilities and people really depend on you. I wish that I could go back to being a child. Then again, I was an adult as a child. I guess its a lose lose situation for me. Why am I not shocked?

2 comments:

Derek John Boczkowski said...

Melinda--

Without the formatting of the interview (the questions), I get a little lost here. Remember that informal writing may release us from some constraints of organization and grammar, but always be mindful of the reader(s).

3/5 (format, no link)

JanelleTravels said...

M-
I enjoyed reading your blog entries, mostly because I can relate to you on so many things. I get really stressed out, and even starting thinking that college wasn’t right for me because I couldn’t pass one math class. It’s just a lot of pressure from my parents to do well (mainly my mom, even though she never went to college) It’s hard to try and be perfect all the time for everyone, because you’re trying to please them, but then you never please yourself or have time to do things you want to do. I’m 19 and living at home and I don’t get very much freedom either. If I do I get asked a million questions about where I’m going to be, who will be there, what I’ll be doing, how I know them, what time I’ll be home……..etc. It’s so annoying. My mom actually keeps track of when I stay the night at someones house on the weekend, so then I can’t stay over the following weekend because “I go out too much”.
I realized that the more blogs you wrote, the more detailed they were. The newest ones were very descriptive which I liked reading. The part about the panic attack was really good, it made me feel as though I was going through it too. Your blogs made me think about all the stresses in my own life, and then it got me stressed out! I guess that is a good thing because you get people thinking about their own lives, and some of the things they have to deal with, or maybe some of the same stressors you have.
Reading your blog made me realize though that I wouldn’t want to write about the stressors in my life. It would just cause me to stress even more. I try not to think about things too much, I guess that is why I procrastinate. I just try not to think about what I need to do until it HAS to be done.
Great job on all your blogs. I loved reading them and my heart goes out to you on the whole babysitting while hanging out with your friends.